just another train of thoughts...

Why is it that dreams collapse??? It hurts a lot you see... To know your heart has kind of turned upside down and then wrenched out of your chest and then been hammered to bits and pieces right in front of your eyes! It is sad to come to know that the person whom you trusted doesn't trust you any more... That maybe you also don't trust him. Maybe your heart is too big to love just one person and that it isn't right to do that either!!! Is it right that your heart is too large to love just one person... Why is it that I cannot do just this? It is saddening right??
To think that the guy you thought was your life thinks of you in not so good a tone is in itself heart breaking... but to think you'll lose that one guy who was both your best friend and much much more is crushing...

There was this one guy whom I loved so differently I couldn't understand it at all! It's saddening it's to come to an end. I loved this guy with a passion. You know, when one gets angry there's this rush of energy, of adrenaline coursing through your body... Imagine that same force and spirit when you are loving that person. That same vigor, only thing it is not in anger, but rather in love that you feel all this. Till now, I'd always known love to be calm, relaxing and loving. But knowing this guy made my heart pump blood faster, my brain numb and me just doing whatever my instincts tell me! And to think whatever I'd done shouldn't have been done. To love and then lose is BAD, trust me. I know. That loser feeling is hurtful, losing all of one's self confidence is annihilating. What can I say? Love of the anger kind is just there to bring tears later... Tears of sadness and devastation...
Love of the anger kind is just like anger. Anger burns the person who has it more than the person to whom it is directed. So is this love. This fire which you kindle for the other person burns you more than him...